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Laboring week

This week was really exhausting. I lost mucous plug tuesday night and wednesday morning. By tuesday afternoon I started having really strong non BH contractions. about 15 minutes apart. Wed they moved to 10 minutes apart so I though maybe this is it. Thursday and Friday were the same. We actually went to the hospital Saturady around 330am or 4am because I was have contractions 5 minutes apart. I 'm still having them 5 minutes apart. I just figured out this morning that this is prelabor just getting my body ready NOT the real thing and can go on for sometime before we meet the baby. So I just need to rest and not get all excited. Dh and I are somewhat sad for this young girl that came into observation while we were there in another room. dh said she looks really young and out of it. Was accompanied by her parents. She came in screaming and moaning and just did not look right. We overheard her mother say she just started having excrutiating pain about 5-10 mintues before she was brought in by ambulance and began bleeding in the ambulance. Things moved pretty fast. There was an emergency nurses and doctors came from everywhere. Stat ultasound revealed no heartbeat her baby had bled out. And her uterus had filled with blood and they needed to do an emergency csection to save her life. With in 5 minutes they had rolled her out to surgery. Dh and I prayed for her and her family. Our heart sunk from the aweful scream she had once finding out her 34 week gestation baby had died and there was nothing that could be done for the baby but they needed to now try to save mom. After losing Morgen last year I have very recent empathy for the young mom. Also being a nurse I know she may never be able to have children if they had to perform a hysterectomy to stop the bleeding. She'd be alive but she'd feel dead inside. Losing her baby and chance to ever have more. I felt grateful this year to be pregnant like A second chance at life even though I can never replace the baby I lost. Little Noah will help ease the pain of my broken heart. The young mommy just turned 16 in March. It felt weird because dh and I daughters will be 14 in a few short weeks. So we felt parent pain and just weird like so close. I can't explain but we talked and prayed for an hour. I was so sad and ready to go home after that. I still want to know if the young girl made it through surgery she looked really really close to death. Like she was bleeding to death. We are still praying for her.

Updates

Sam was very dehydrated when He woke up this am for pain meds. So Had serious prayertime. Coaxed him in to sipping it from the medicine dropper. So I am now getting him to drink some water. Hope to be able to get him drinking from a cup soon.
Sam had 4 of his front teeth pulled. They had died. He is having some problems with his bones right now. I didn't know anything was wrong with him until around February when he kept complaining or ear pain. I never saw any ear problems checking myself. Took him to our family practice doc. even he said his ears are fine.One month later he actually verbalized that Sammy's teeth hurt. So I decided to take him to a dentist. Some days he wouldn't want to eat.. I believe from the pain. The dentist told us then that his teeth felt "spongy" or really soft and suggested we use floridated water( allow him to drink it)To help strengthen his teeth?? One of my children told him that we drink filtered water and use tooth paste that doesn't contain flouride. So the dentist thought it was a simple case of Sam having spongy teeth from a lack of flouride in his diet. But refered us to a ??periodontist,endodontist??? for evaluation. The endo?? thought he felt a tumor or something that didn't belong there in Sam's upper gums. He also wanted to look inside to make sure that it wasn't something really bad or too close to his brain so..... He began xrays and MRI. It appeared to be localized to the area in front of his ear..Hence the pain in his ear for over a month or more. ?? not sure if it was lymph related..ie) drainage or what. but it was removed. Sam had nerve damage all of his front top 4 teeth had died and they had to be removed. the rest of his teeth all had to be capped to protect them. He doesn't know if the teeth still in his gums are alive or dead. Sam has had a few fevers recently and has elevated liver enzymes,elevated platelets and elevated white blood cells. They want to recheck his blood in 2 weeks.
He is to see the endo on thurs for followup. His surgery friday was at CMC under general anesthesia at same day surgery so we came home as soon as they felt comfortable with him leaving. The endo has been calling us alot to check on Sam. Really nice guy. God blessed us with a few good people to care for him. They didn't even give us trouble about our lack of vaccinations. I was kinda worried about that. All were courteous and respectful and didn't act weirded out by us praying for and over Sam. Right before the anestheiologist carried him into the OR we prayed that Sam would be happy,calm ,peaceful and relaxed. He was giggling like a silly little drunk man when he was carried away. A nurse called from the OR after they started working on him to tell us that God answered that prayer that he was giggly till he was put under and that the surgery was going well. it took almost 4.5 hours. She(the RN) called us from the OR to update us hourly which gave me lots of comfort. We were only expecting a 2 hour surgery. Overall things seem God ordained. My only complaint is upon returning home ..i guess the stress had gotten to dh.. he was fairly rude to me all evening.Upset that I had not planned what we'd have for dinner, I hadn't made tea for him. We went to hospital together and stayed there all day together fine. But at home I felt very attacked and just physically and mentally spent. I was too fatigued to even think about anything so I went to bed. Someone woke me up to give Sam his pain med. then I went back to sleep. I didn't really eat much friday or yesterday. I am still quite exhausted. today I am having
less contractions today..like 4-6 per hour so they have spaced out. Had about 10-12 per hour yesterday. But I still feel quite crampy like af cramps. Baby still moves alot. So I am not really worried. I don't feel like I am in real labor anymore like I felt yesterday. It was probably from all the stress.
I still want to finish cleaning my house before I have the baby.
Oh .. Sam is up playing with his cars and coloring and seems better since I 've gotten water into him. I am planning to give him some soft solids today ..like applesauce, potatoes mashed or maybe custard. he is starting to look a bit puny. I appreciate ALL of the prayers for us that we can get. I see prayer working.
I need to rest because I am too tired to behave. May pop in again later. I am getting AOL broadband soon Woohoo...(can't wait)so it will be easier to get on and STAY online without being bumped. Psalm 103:1-5
Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all His benefits; Who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies, Who satisfies your mouth with good things, So that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
Blessings,Angie W.

WOW!!!!!

Kayla and David are working their tushes off to help me get the house clean.
They are being such a blessing today!!! I have been trying so hard and feeling so tired.
I hope we can get all accomplished by friday and I can rest till baby is born.
Blessings, Angie

blah...too hot.... whine.... whine..where is my cheese?

I'm slowly rereading Created to be his help meet. I am reading my bible and praying. It is an all out battle for souls here. I have to remember I'm on the winning team. I am having a hard time here. I am heat untolerant when I am not pregnant but it is pretty bad pregnant. I can not convince dh to put window units in the window yet. He said I need to toughen up and it doesnt feel that bad. So I haven't cooked for a few days like I usually bake fresh bread and such. I haven't gotten up early as usual either because I am fighting again for a bed time for the kids. dh telling me how much of a control freak that I am. We are so working against one another. I have no clue what he is trying to raise ..other that tv addict children that think that I am a maid or something. Can you belive everyone got angry with me for telling them yo fix their own breakfats and sandwiches at lunch. The around dinner time..what are you making for dinner? uh.. nothing Mommy is waiting for the cool front to return. We have no ac other than the window units. I have swollen so much that I can NOT wear my wedding rings or my shoes. All heat related because my bp is fine... 100/60. I guess I went from one miserable house to another.As a teen living with my mom and her husband was pretty rough. I had a great husband and marriage until 7-8 years ago. Subtle selfishness creeped in. Now I don't even care to get out of beds most days. I think if I didn't have a 2 year old and was expecting a new baby I probably would be dead by now because I have loss energu to fight. I don't even know what I 'd be fighting for. I don't even know if my sacrifice of time and energy has even had a positive effect on my children? I am exhausted and wish I had a place to just go and rest for a little while. .. alone....I wish I had a maid for a few days to get my house really clean. because right now it is filthy. I wish the hot weather did not bring in fleas into my house. Every time it gets hot for the past 2 years since dh got these cats I am the one who gets eatten alive by fleas?? why I dont know. Maybe they think I am an animal of sorts?I feel so bad for my children having me for a mother right now. I feel like such a poor one.it is 1144pm here and 4 of my kids are still awake Sam the 2 year old has been down since 830pm.dh went to bed at 930pm. I would have made the kids go to bed right after him ..which is what I usually do ,but since he had an extra day off he made a huge mess he expected me to clean but I made the kids clean it after he retired. He has been trying to punish me all day for not cooking all weekend. But as long as its 90 degrees in this brick house with thick flea carpeting... I will stay far far away from the kitchen. Our family needs serious prayer and serious Christian counseling. I tried talking to dh about marriage counseling. He told me to go ahead and go. Because I am the one with the problem..the rest of the family is happy. Maybe it will help me to fit in with him and the kids. Maybe I'll learn to be a part of their family.

Today

Resurrection Sunday. I had a great day at church today. Was only sick for a few hours this morning. So I am quite happy.
Came home we had sandwiches for lunch and dinner. Without a/c and being 7 months pregnant it is way to hot to cook. Ronnie doesn't work monday. He said he may put a window unit ac in our living room before he returns to work. I am trying to save up money to get our icemake fixed to. Dh said it was leaking under the house ,so he shut it off and disconnected it sometime last year. I didnt care with cool weather ..but now I need my ice. Some of the family..dh and 10yods and one of my twins are upset with me because I refused to cook today and I refused to order pizza. Did I have change yes. Did I want to spend it on pizza ..no. I figured the faster I get some ice here and the plumber out the better. :o) besides sandwiches never killed anyone..eh??

I am nesting a little trying to get my tiny home ready for baby. Who will be here before we know it. I am a little worried about not having help or what I need. I'm having trouble here with help. I guess that is why I stopped feeling sorry for my family's request. I think we have made them spoiled ..so I am trying to reverse that asap.


In the picture about to the right above my sofa you can see Samuel's masterpiece. I asked the big kiddos to watch him for a half and hour because I was feeling really tired and sick. This is one of the things I awoke to. But I kept my cool. I want to paint my house so bad. I need those renovate your house or habitat people or something.
I have a long list of needs for my house:

• I need to finish tearing up carpet because it makes me and half of our kiddos sick.
• We need some rotted wood replaced
• We need to paint. inside and out
• More plumbing needs fixed
• It would be lovely to have these ceiling fans that have been in my closet for 10 years put up.
• I want tile in the bathroom but it isn't necessry ..just a want
• I have a ton of stuff in the attic I want hauled to a dump somewhere.

Short of divorce.. how do women deal with homethings and raising children alone with a husband who is physically there but can't seem to be mentally or emotionally for help?????

More pictures of the kiddos at play and schoolwork..

Its A....

We decided to go ahead with an ultrasound. I am at the week where Morgen died 20 weeks. So I kinda needed it for a little peace of mind. It feels
great to have seen all 4 heart chamers beating, untact spinal column and organs, 10 fingers and toes, all organs .
Part of me says I should have just prayed for peace from God. Another part of me has been depressed since I lost her and feels great with our decision
and with seeing a healthy baby. I'll sleep better at least for tonight :o)
http://i45.photobucket.com/albums/f65/ucmamma/GalleryPic19w3dUS02-13-06CMOMB.jpg

We are expecting a baby boy in 20 more weeks. Mid summer.

Finally

I am starting to feel human again. The nausea is sporadic not all day any longer especially since I found out about eatting hourly and lots of good proteins. My blood sugars don't drop so much any more except first thing in the morning. I think I've been feling baby flutters for a few days now. First day I thought it was gas..lol. Now I remember that is what all the babies felt lke the first movements that I felt. Totally cool!!!
I am still recovering from the assault of pnemonia on my lungs. Somewhat wheezy still. I still get short of breathe from walking over a few meters. So my endurance is NOT. I hrew my back out a couple of days before New Year's Day. It is starting to feel a lot better. I don't have the constant spasms anymore. I think upping my Shaklee calcium has helped tremendously. It sure helped quell the leg cramps.
Right now I am working on a name for my home business.
New Year New Focus!!

You've turned my mourning into dancing...

We had visit to ob wednesday but didn't see him because he was ill at home. So we had labs-blood and urine.
We also had ultrasound. Which dated baby as 12w3d
and due date of July 9,2006.

Nausea

We are experiencing a multiplied wave of nausea.
Still happy to not have puked so far. Praising God for every moment.
Continuing my Shaklee "powerpack" as we call it here.
Well gotta go to bed. NOW!!!
Nighters!!!

Hi Kerri

Saturday November 5th, 2005
Went shopping. I had been feeling quite queasy all week.
??flu or baby?? :o)
So purchase a Clear Blue Easy at Target.{Idiot Proof Right}